Alright. So, I actually just lost two of my closest friends. As in I suddenly decided to break up contact. I don't even know what triggered this decision, but I suddenly felt that it was something that had to be done and I still feel that way. I don't even feel sad. Or angry. Or disappointed. Or anything. Actually, I feel glad that it's over. Like that's been something I've tried to do for so long and finally managed to do it. I don't know. It just feels right to me and that's what's bugging me the most. I mean, you can't just break up contact with your closest friends and not feel sad about it, right? Am I a bad person for not feeling bad? I just feel like I have to live my life without them. Like they were standing in my way for far too long, instead of helping me to move forward.
What the fuck is wrong with me?! ô_O
(So sorry my first post is a pointless rant, but I just had to write these thoughts down. Will make a real post soon, explaining why I haven't posted in so long and everything.)